2nd Birthday Party Thank You Wording digital fairy

I can not love you ... I can not just
...

my whole being cries I do it all over my body ...
conspiring against me ...
every time I see my pupils dilate ...
every time I see my veins constrict and my blood pressure increases ...
my muscles tense and my heart races ...


my brain is flooded with endorphins ... feniletinamina ... dopamine and who knows how many more "amines" that make you drowsy and believe that everything will be fine ...

my fucking hypothalamus instructs those bulticos up my rinone to release adrenaline gushing ...
and consequently all the hair on my body, giving rise to a standing ovation ....

and everything that happens at my back ...
everything is unconscious ... all those hormones
ignore the sad truth that only includes the cerebral cortex ...

you do not exist ...

are nothing but a bunch of pixels on a screen that shines in the darkness ...
are no more than a digital illusion that tempts me ... I look ... I called ....
but you're not there ...
never were ...

alone ... I always wanted to feel another heat more than that released by the end Pentium processor ...
always wanted to feel the breeze of the warm breath of your lips and not the fan that remains on the illusion ...

now I'm crying ...
salty tears ... made of 98% water and 2% glucose, protein, sodium and potassium and a 100% pain ...
deep pain ... DolEx immune to the vicodin and morphine ... a pain like you ... is not real but I can not breath ....
I feel like dying ...
and do not want to die ...
not without beloved ...

really love somebody ...